PACIENCIA - PATIENCE - GEDULD

Hello dear readers! I am back to a new journey of thoughts and reflections. The word today is patience. Patience for me changed a lot in the last few years. It represented in the past the expectation for something which would be  happening in the future. However it is not like that for me anymore. Patience is just a reflection of the many possibilities that may happen in your life. It this waiting time that you experience in a event that you are about to live. Interestingly, the events in the future may not be in the future anymore. Some outstanding discoveries in science point out to the possibility of many "worlds". This means that what happens now in your reality is just one of the possible infinite outcomes that may arise from a particular moment. At least from a particle point of view your "ideal" outcome, or dream is already reality in some point at this infinite multilayer universe.  So that means that patience as we know does not make sense, because eventually your expectation has happened even though you did not experienced. Even more weird, in a time frame that may be in the past. I think very cool to imagine that the way we observe and understand the universe may only be an hologram or one version of our history. Another important point that made patient change to me is your ability to sculpture your own destiny. By intention, something that I talk a lot in my texts, you can access this point where you construct your reality by unfolding your desires into feelings, thoughts and actions. The way you deal with your own sequence of events in life will determine where you will get. And by being patient to understand that it does not manifest instantly (in spite of being theoretically possible), one could write a book of your life as it is desired in the inner mind. Another thing that changed in my perception of patience, is that you can actually enjoy the path to the outcome, instead of feeling that you are losing time. At some situations is even desirable that you don't get what you want in a blink. The building of a goal in your life, may it be professional, personal or spiritual  is usually better developed through a process of steps and repetition. Sometimes disappointment and failure also make part of it and actually may contribute to the best final result. Even though we tend to desire the achievement as soon as possible, from a more romantic perspective, it ends the beauty of the victory because of the easiness it was completed, or because it was too fast solved. During my time in Germany, I faced many rocks along the way. When they were painful I would like to get red of them as soon as I could. But I understood that by using the patience on my favor, the pain was actually a very, very good thing. This keeps happening ever since. No fear anymore of hard times. People or things come and go, give you happiness or disappointment and those are the tools our existence gives us to make our evolution as beings. As weird as it may sound, by understanding that keeping the patience during bad times will bring very good times, is now for me very true. And we are not still in a point to understand all the variables that take place during the waiting times for the future to come. A syndrome is making humanity much impatient and this brings much of the suffering of the society today. We are obliged to function in full speed 24/7 and this is not humanly possible. The nature has designed us in a way where we need to use the benefit of the waiting to things to manifest the way we want. Today it is my anniversary here in Germany. I am here since exactly 3 years (I came on the September 27th  2012). Those who actually know my path since the beginning know how hard it was to get here. Lots of emotional, psychological and professional challenges taking place at the same time. Now, three years later, after lots of experiences, ups and downs, I can only thank the universe and whoever rules it (God, spiritual force, you name it), because only through it I could day by day construct the new version of myself that I have become. The patience that all would be good in the end never let me to give up. Even though during many times I almost collapsed, I kept within me the will to overcome whatever it would come. And I did it, with lots of determination and patience. With patience I could turn things around and make them look a lot better. Finally, I can say that I have achieved this in all aspects of my life. First, I learned to love myself. I am now sitting at a cafe in Tübingen, alone, writing this. The absence of necessity to have people around to feel good is the greatest accomplishment one can get. You are free in fact, because no need really exists. You can feel good just by being with you. Secondly I developed my skills to connect with people. I made many friends and met a lot of amazing people. Travelled all around, without paying an euro to meet and learn with the best experts in my field. I got closer to my family and because of that I was able to fight all my shadows with courage. And to finish, the main purpose of coming here was accomplished. My PhD is turning out very good, and many things are already happening because of this work. And all of this happened because of my patience to wait, but not in a negative way of being annoyed because it did not happened as planned (someone far more intelligent actually does this for us in a more out of order script), but paradoxically because it did not turn out as planned. I love to look back and see that I did not plan what actually happened, but in the end I was able to see it as very close to my highest desires in life. And this will never stop happening as long as I continue to follow this path with faith from the heart. Have patience to achieve whatever dreams you may have. You never know where this will take you, but if you respect your values and tune them to the outside world, be sure, you will be soon picturing your dreams in your physical reality. I wish to all who supported me up to this point lots of gratitude, love and happiness. It is my desire that all that I could experience to this point can improve the humanity and that even this small text can touch people, or even one soul, not to give up and always to believe that life can be better. All the best to all. A big hug and thanks for reading this!

FELICIDADE HAPPINESS GLUCKLICHKEIT

Back to my blog, after some time off. This last month was really a terrific time in my life and I have learned and progressed in many different aspects of myself. Therefore, I think it is time to write about happiness, because I might have started to understand what is happiness about. Happiness now for me  is being yourself. This concept was so hidden in my subconscious mind in a way I could not perceive it on me. We are taught since kids to pursue happiness. Interestingly, during childhood we can actually experience this kind of limitless happiness. According to one of my self development mentors, Flavio Gikovate, during childhood we do not fear happiness. We accept receiving it with no defence mechanisms. However, after sometime, when we reach a deep awareness of the world around us and we lack to see inside, we start to be fooled by our own ideas and beliefs. We develop what is called "fear of happiness". This is kind of paradox, but in reality holds us back of having the full enjoyment in our lives. Our mind does not accept anymore happiness because of fearing that something bad might take it away from us. This is a misconception from our mind, since the happiness can be unlimited in every aspect of our life. In my experience lately, I have figured out that there is no such necessity of developing this kind of defence mechanism. I think that the best way of achieving such a state of happiness in the deep meaning of it is being completely yourself. This demands a huge amount of braveness, because by choosing this path consciously, you will have to face things that you might not be prepared to. Your deepest weaknesses, fears, traumas, limitations. You will begin a journey towards your own shadow. Of course, this trip also can be able to enhance the good parts of you. Meaning that your qualities and potentials may be improved by consciously assessing from a fearless perspective. That is where you begin to understand happiness. The second step for me was to completely lose the shame of your deffects. There is a very nice book and study from Rene Brown, talking about it. She awakened me to this new way of facing my limitations and traumas by accepting and actually talking about it. To show vulnerability is not a sign of being weak. Instead, is the deepest sign of strength and braveness. In the automatic mode that we usually live in we tend to postpone or procrastinate our own inner journey. And worse than that we try to avoid or block talking about the things that we do not like about ourselves. I have noticed that when you sincerely start to talk about yourself without fearing being judged in any manner, your things will be received by another human being with compassion and comprehension. There is no need to hide it. Happiness will actually start to fulfil your being from the moment you decide to deliberately talk about it. Discuss it. Live it again in your mind and bring it alive to your conscious understanding. Otherwise, it is just impossible to reach the level of happiness we pursue during our entire existence. Again, it has nothing, absolutely nothing to do with your ability to deal with the external world. On the contrary, the more you search inside, the better your life will get. When you wear a mask, it is just not possible to make your happiness flourish. I am a happy person now. At least I consider my life happy. And curiously, I am out of what people would call "normal life path". By being "out of the gaussian curve" of the expected life path for someone at my age and life experience, I could be able to access this deep understanding. This took thousand of free hours with myself. Was not easy, and will never be  completed. But, somehow, my odd and challenging life situation allowed me to have something that most of my counterparts can not have as much: TIME. Time with yourself is absolute a must. Hours and hours of reading, meditation, openness to the new, brain porosity, emotional resilience and a lot, lot of persistence. I am now towards to what I define "true happiness". A state of mind that accounts completely into you. 100%. It has nothing to do with what you achieve or how much you financially earn. Or with what amount of "success" you accomplish in your professional, personal or spiritual life. It has to do with YOU. You are the key to your own happiness. The real sense of happiness lies inside. Your body is just a physical vehicle to allow you to experience. But, from my side, happiness is a feeling which cannot be accounted as completely physical. It transcends the comprehension that people have about a word definition. It gets to a point where words cannot give anything but an impression of what it really is. That is my experience now. I don't consider anymore some of the society "requirements" to achieve this state. You must be completely free from dogmas. That means that you need to create your own set o values and beliefs which are in tune with your true deep nature. Frequency coherence occurs in every system in equilibrium. I think that this balance is what makes you be able to experience happiness. It will be different to each human being, but all of us can achieve this state by looking to the inner side, in order to manifest in the outside. Please, if you can, or if you have the time, try to talk after you read this about one of your deepest fears with someone you trust. This is just a free sample of what you can achieve when you open your shadows, releasing them from you, without judging, so that this transformation can start to occur. I will put some links in the end of this text to inspire you. Are videos from the two authors I cited here. One is in portuguese and the other is in english. So none of you from my audience has the excuse to watch at least one. I wish you the best of all so that you can achieve this state that we try to go for during our whole life. I started to see it. And I am sure that everyone can see it as well. Have a great sunday!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5qKybD1P5nk - Fear of happiness (portuguese)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=psN1DORYYV0 - Listening to shame (english)